It's been a while since I've written a post. There have been times where I've come, began to write, and erased it because I didn't think anyone would care to read about that particular subject. Thank you over-analytical brain. Since it's been so long, though, I just thought I'd write a quick update on life.
1. Work. I am getting settled in well at work. It's crazy though that everyday brings new emotions and new experiences. I guess that's the career I chose. Some days I come home feeling like I know exactly why I wanted to be a nurse and feeling like it is exactly where I belong. Other days I wonder who in their right mind would let me be in charge of someone's life and well being. Needless to say, my confidence has been pretty shaky lately. I guess it's only normal to feel this way. Maybe time will offer more reassurance and lots of better days. I do love being able to invest in people during important times in their lives. I don't really love all of the paperwork and technicalities that come with professional nursing.
2. Marriage. On Sunday, Bryan and I have been married for a whole year. That blows my mind. I don't know if it is crazier to me that we've been together for 5 or married for 1. I never thought marriage would be like this, but I love it so much. A good friend and mentor told us once, "Marriage isn't meant to make you happy, but to make you Holy." I'd say that's the theme of the year. I haven't had every dream fulfilled just because I'm married. I have however been drawn to and learned more about God than I ever dreamed. I am so thankful for a husband who so diligently points me to Christ. I am so very blessed.
3. Family. I miss my family a lot recently. I guess it is because I have been out of school and have much more free time. It's hard to make trips home, but it's easy to start missing our family dearly. I miss Madison and Clayton the most. I think about them all the time. Sometimes I plan out fun days that we could have together and think how much I would love to hear their precious laughs. I guess since we don't have kids (and don't plan to for a while) they are the closest thing I have to kids. I love living in Nacogdoches, but I wish I could see them more often.
4. Friends. This subject stings a little. This is what I've been calling the summer of goodbyes, and I hate it. I am not good at saying goodbye to people. It's almost like I go through the stages of grief: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance. So far this summer I feel like so many people have left. Tons of my nursing friends left after graduation, but thankfully many of the ones I was closest to stayed. Jaime and Melissa moved early June, Chip moved mid-June, and Justin and Heather left late June. Each of those people played a big role in my life one way or another, and it sucks to have seen them go. The hardest goodbye will be at the end of July. I have to send my best friend in the world, Brittany, off to DC to start her new journey at grad school. I am beyond proud of her accomplishments, and so honored to call her my best friend. A huge part of me wants to be selfish, though and keep her here forever. Luckily, Bryan and I will be going to visit her in DC September 1-5. This will be my first airplane ride! **gasp** I'm so excited for our trip. Brittany already has an itinerary planned by the minute, and I know it will be an experience of a lifetime.
Well...that's life for now. Until next time...
