Thoughts Racing

I have always been a thinker. My brain is going 100 mph 100% of the time I'm awake. Even when I'm sleeping, I'd say it still trucks along at about 70 mph. There are lots of things I think about. Here are a few:

1. School. Nursing school has been the most chaotic time of my life. Organization skills have saved me, but I feel like there is constantly something to be thinking about. Sometimes it is a test coming up or a big clinical. Others it's a subject that is hard to grasp. And on days like today, it's figuring out how to make myself organized enough that I can be in the right place at the right time with the right materials for the next 5 months.

2. My infinite to-do list. I make at least one a day, but sometimes I wind up with 3 or 4. They are stuck all over my desk and in random places throughout my planner. I have an obsession with lists, and there is a great deal of pleasure that comes from crossing things off of this list.

 3. My interactions/relationships with others. I am probably one of the most analytical people in the whole world. I analyze every word I speak, how people perceive it, and how that affects our relationship. I also analyze everything everyone else does and says. It often creates all kinds of problems. My husband gets so tired of me analyzing his every move, he sometimes just tells me to stop thinking about what he is doing because he's not thinking about it.

As you can imagine, I get mentally exhausted. This month has been particularly rough. I haven't had restful sleep in weeks it seems. I say all of that to tell you about this wonderful addition to my life. January 3rd I started training for my first race. It will be a 5K in April. I was beyond scared because I have never run more than a mile and a half that I can remember, and I am incredibly out of shape. I went out and bought myself a $100 pair of running shoes (partly because I needed them and partly because I knew spending $100 on something would motivate me to use it). I had no clue that running would be so wonderful! When I'm running, all I think about is getting from point A to point B in a decent amount of time with a decent form (although Chip would say I don't move my arms right). It is wonderful to have nothing going on in my head other than the things I need to have there for running. It almost makes me sad to think that one day I might be good enough at it that I can think of other things than my side cramp and aching knees. Until then, I'm going to enjoy every time I get to start a new journey, and be so incredibly thankful that I have found something to slow down my brain...even if it is just for a few minutes.

running shoes that I love. :)