Blessed

Blessed. I feel like this is kind of like the word love. English just doesn't do it justice. I mean there is agape love, phileo love, and eros love just to name a few. We use the same word to describe our feelings for food as we do for the most important people in our lives. Blessed, like love, doesn't offer enough emphasis to the emotions it provokes. Lucky doesn't do it because it leaves it up to chance. I'm more of a believer that someone God is in control.

I am blessed. Yesterday I turned 22, and I got a glimpse of just how blessed I am. I woke up to two amazing friends singing me happy birthday with a cupcake and a candle on my porch at midnight to start the day right. I can't forget to mention that they toughed out pouring rain to make sure they could follow through with this. My husband later bought me gorgeous flowers and treated me like a queen for the day. When I walked into a meeting for school everyone suddenly burst into singing "happy birthday", some of these people who knew me and others who didn't. Finally, I ended the day with close to 30 friends (I didn't count all who came.) enjoying a night of fun with me. Some of the closest who gave me a gift card for $150 so I could buy the Garmin watch I've been wanting for running. These people love me. Most of them think I've helped their lives in some way. What they don't know is the impact they've had on mine. The smiles they have put on my face and the friendship they have given me is completely irreplaceable.

Bryan and I have been a little concerned about finances for the beginning of summer. We were trying really hard to not deplete our first savings that we were so thankfully able to accumulate since January. I wasn't supposed to start work until June 20, but our funds were slowly dwindling. We had been talking about this often, and I have probably done the math a million times. It doesn't help that I need a whole new wardrobe of scrubs to start work, and I really wanted a few more things to finish our house before family visited at graduation. Yesterday I got an email saying I could start work earlier than the original June 20 start date. Today I got $457.90 credited to my bank account for an award I was selected for from my amazing nursing professors. I had no clue this award existed, and I definitely didn't know it included money. When I realized what had happened, all I could do was cry.

I have absolutely no doubt that God is behind every single good thing that has happened in the past week. I am first grateful to Him for this love that I am so undeserving of. Not only do I have His unending love, but I have the love all of these people in my life. The past weeks have had some trials, but the Lord has once again proven so faithful to overwhelm me with His goodness. His timing is perfect. His methods are flawless. He is good.